ACHOO!!
HELP!
I’m seriously losing my mind. Baby changes every day. One day he’ll nurse, the next he won’t, one day he takes a morning nap, next day he won’t nap at all. Yesterday he decided he didn’t want to nurse at all. Today he decided he doesn’t like my right boob. He likes them both if it’s between the hours of 9 pm and 6 am and we’re in bed. I’ve tried recreating the entire night situation in the day to get him to eat – he looks at me like I’m totally crazy and then starts crying. It’s like he’s saying “Hey, Mom I’m not dumb! I KNOW it’s not night time yet!” What the heck could be wrong with my right boob! It’s the same as the left. I’ve tried holding him in every different position I can think of. He just wants nothing to do with it.
Baby also has a teeny tiny ingrown toenail 
I know how bad those suckers hurt! I keep thinking about pushing the skin away and putting hot compresses on it, like I was instructed to do with mine. But I know how bad that hurt and I hate doing that do him when he can’t tell me it hurts or when to stop. We have it on the same foot – same toe right now. Damn things.
Yesterday I was desperate to get some things done. He was having no part in helping with that. I ended up strapping him into his little Snugli Carrier on the front of me and we walked to get some errands done. The walk was nice, but holy crap that gets heavy, especially when you come back with bags in hand also. It’s like being pregnant all over again. By the time we finished with errands and headed home he was getting really crabby. Prolly from being stuck in the damn thing, I have no idea how comfy it must be. We made it home with a few tears. He actually did well for a little walk in the stroller last night too.
I have my own frustrating problems right now. For the first time in my life I feel completely stuck and lost. Losing a job sucks, especially when it was such a good job that was going to make things much easier. I LOVE being home with baby and lately with the way things have gone I can’t imagine any daycare even taking him. I know a few people who’ve been kicked out of daycares because they have kids who cry all day. Hell, my baby won’t even let Gramma hold him. He won’t eat, he doesn’t nap – they’d laugh at me and show me the door I’m so used to being an independent person who has made a living on my own that without a job and being dependent on someone else is absolutely killing me. I never thought I’d be THIS affected by it, but I really can’t handle it. I keep thinking that once I get kids coming everyday and a little income coming in I’ll be better. But it’s not the job I’m used to and I still think of all the things that bother me. I won’t make NEAR as much money, I have NO benefits like I used to – no retirement, insurance, 401k (all that good stuff). Anyway… it’s just all really bothering me in a way I never knew it would. I’ve always thought it would be so great to be a SAHM, I’m having my doubts now (NO offense baby – I love you!). I feel like less of a person right now because of it all – like I’m not being complete for myself.
sleeping troubles
Sorry for lack of posting. Right now at this very minute is the FIRST time baby has slept longer than 5 minutes in the day for a LONG time. I’m seriously losing my mind because I just don’t know what to do. Yesterday he was asleep on my shoulder after eating and burping – I’m talking so hard asleep that he was completely limp and if you moved him he didn’t bat an eyelash – laid him down and 4 MINUTES later he was WIDE awake screaming. That’s how it’s been. He’s so crabby because he’s exhausted. He was taking a good 2-3 hour nap in the mornings and then a shorter nap in the afternoons for quite some time and now he doesn’t sleep at all during the day. He’s doing pretty good at sleeping for 6-7 hours at night, but that’s ALL he gets! How can he function! Geesh baby. If I hold him completely still after eating he may sleep for 10 minutes in my arms and then wide awake screaming again.
I’ve started making him go to sleep on his own at night, which for the past few nights has gone great – takes a while – but it’s working for him. We lay in bed together and he nurses and then I burp him and lay him in the bassinet/playpen thingy by my bed and just lay in bed watching him. He twists and turns and looks around and flips his head from one side to the other and sucks on his fists a bit and eventually just drifts off. It’s been nice because it had turned into me nursing him, burping him and trying to get him to sleep and when that didn’t work I brought him back into bed and became the human pacifier just so he’d go to sleep. GAH that’s frustrating. Yesterday he actually talked himself to sleep one time – of course it was another 4 minute nap but I was glad to see he is capable of keeping himself calm and falling asleep on his own.
Guess What! He’s back to nursing! And he’s doing wonderfully again!! I don’t know what the deal was – other than those damn shots – I blame them completely. They just maybe made him feel kinda yucky and he wasn’t quite himself. He sure sucked down the bottles during the time. I’m talking 4 oz every time he ate – and trust me it was often! I couldn’t believe how much he ate, I was digging in the freezer for stored milk to keep up with him – I couldn’t keep up with pumping.
I pic of my oldest today 
It’s picture day today at school.
It was 23 degrees this morning!! BRRRRRRR
nursing troubles
ACK! I don’t know what’s wrong! Baby refuses to nurse during the day. It started right after those damn shots He hasn’t nursed during the day since. He’ll nurse at night in bed and if he wakes in the night and sometimes first thing in the morning. During the day he’ll just scream at me and throw his head back wanting nothing to do with me. I didn’t realize how attached to nursing I was – it’s breaking my heart. I’ve been pumping and feeding him that milk during the day and he’s been eating so much that I’ve had to use some pumped from earlier days. I’ve tried holding him different ways, eating in different rooms, laying in bed like he likes to do and nothing is working. He hasn’t slept good during the day either. No more naps for this baby, he takes about 3 10 minutes cat naps during the day and isn’t going to bed until close to midnight! I miss his nice schedule he had going. He drools SO much all of the sudden – it just pours out of him and anything that gets close to his mouth is going to be chewed to nothing. All kinds of things make me think he’s teething, which is very possible at 2 months. I keep feeling around for teeth in there – I guess I’ll know for sure when I get bit! He’s been doing so good nursing that I can’t figure this all out and I’m worried now that he’s getting attached to a bottle during the day. Any advice ladies?
